Squares vs. Opposition.In terms of feeling...An opposition is a pulling feeling with the native I believe and a square is more like a feeling of being pushed aside.
Yes..another person may embody one side of the opposition if the person is highly polarized both an individual and collective level.
Squares are a matter of integration and time. An opposition is an either or proposition which doesn't have to be but is in the mind of the native.
For example...I have many ideas about what I want to do but never have the time...I have to learn to adapt and figure out how to make more time. That is why a square is associated with saturn...it is a matter of integration and refinement...and pushes the native to seek a sollution.
It's like having to study really hard for law school. You ahve to put everything aside for a few years. But if you can do it, and you don't fall into the pits, you might find later on you have more time to do what you wanted to do...you are benefiting from the square! A square is like transforming negative karma (oh why me!) into positive karma (the challenge is done with and now I am free!).
So a square is quite literally, to me like a dance. It's a matter of putting something aside, and then picking it up again. At first, you feel consumed by the challenge. But then you change your diet it, wake up two hours earlier, and stop going out on weekends....to integrate all your separate parts...
Not everyone is like this...some people don't have a lot of squares..their cool with working and partying...or just doing a few things...they're fine with watching t.v. and working.
A person with squares is not fine with that. They have to integrate the different aspects...in the long run they bloom!
An opposition is ever present. An opposition between Saturn in Chiron for example might make the native seem like he is of two worlds. If he's fully integrated he may be the guy in the suit who is an astrologer....A venus mars opposition is like the athlete who gets pedicures...or knits...or likes to make music.
My opposition is always present. If I don't take a step back and ask myself what I'm projecting and what Is actuallt coming from the other person I wille xternalize it.
Note: this is no easy task...there are many people who are brilliant geniuses but they project...this is the spiritual muscle that Carl Jung had but Albert Einstein lacked(or else he would have never helped develop weapons of mass destruction)....This is about introspection....and not acting out on anger...
Note: this is hard as hell to do because anger is biological. We literally have to learn to control our breathing in order to stop projecting...it is literally a wholistic way of living..
It's like the person who is a vegetarian trying to force the person who eats meat to stop eating meat. She's projecting. She can't force that on another...she or he has literally become a tyrant in her quest to stop people from hurting animals.
So the squares are kind of like obstalces around the corners of our existence and the oppositions are internal conflicts which force us to reconsider our positions....both of them lead to evolution.
The trines are like raw talents or gifts...like rich parents maybe who fully support you. Without any squares you will probably just become a bum....I know someone with many trines and oppositions but no squarees and they blame everyone else around them and are total bums...
but anyways...
I have thought about being a teacher...but I could never do it...I could never work in the school system as it is today. I do not believe in it with my heart and all my energy would dissipate. As for teaching esoteric things, I've thought about it and I could never do that either because I myself am not sure of what I'm saying. I go by the signs...
But thank you...others have told me that and I consider it a huge compliment.
Maybe one day, if the world turns, I can do it...
Remember prometheus and chiron were eternally tortured for what they taught...ID o not wish to go down that path...but maybe a sollution will present itself one day.